The best laid plans of mice and men often go awry.
Have you ever dreamed big and hit a roadblock?
I was 12 weeks in to my marathon prep for Brighton Marathon and woke up in the middle of the night with the most excruciating pain in my head.
As I lay there doing a quick assessment, I tried to calm my fears by convincing myself that it was a migraine.
Only, it didn’t feel like a migraine.
For the next few hours I tried to sleep, then I got up and paced around, to no avail.
It was hideous.
The next day I got seen by my doctor, my blood pressure was sky-high.
“No running for you Bridget”. he said all grim-faced and quiet.
That was a week ago and I am still no closer to them finding out why.
They have ruled lots out – the usual suspects…. but they now have a question mark over my kidneys, heart and potential blockages somewhere.
Until they find out, I am not allowed to run.
I have cried, got angry (probably not the best thing given my predicament), googled stuff (also not a good idea) and generally felt rather sorry for myself.
BUT…. and it’s a big but…. it has led me to sit, feeling very uncomfortable with my feelings and work out another plan.
You see, I have come to realise that I had become totally out of balance.
I had become so strict with my training plan, so mindful of eating super healthily and sticking to a rigid diet in the hope of 100% health that I had gone against the very golden rainbow that I was seeking.
Health and Happiness.
I wrote an instagram post about it here
When nothing goes right…go left.
I don’t know whether or not I will be able to run this marathon or not next month.
What I do know is right now, my heart is beating and I am ALIVE.
So I have faced a roadblock that I am going to go round in the only way I know how.
- Give love – nurture those around me with love, support my running buddies and continue my random acts of kindness.
- Find something to look forward to – I am mindful that I can’t plan too far ahead at the moment so tonight I am going to cook some delicious seafood.
- I have lowered my expectations – I tend to get very down when I have high expectations so my motto for the near future is to expect nothing and be pleasantly surprised if plans happen.
- Do something – this is explained in the last part of this post.
Are you at a roadblock?
If, like me, you are in a similar position then try the 4 points above. Experience has shown me that when I apply them, life becomes better again.
Whether it is the end of a relationship, a redundancy, an injury or you are stumped for an answer to something…. sit with it for a while and then take out a sheet of paper and do the above,
So what now?
So here I am today, sitting at my computer and if this last week has taught me anything it has given me a massive nudge to speak my truth in the hope that it gives you some strength and help along the way.
I have dabbled with blogging in the past but I have hidden behind a brand.
I have written about the world of dieting for so long, hidden behind my Six Pack Chick company.
I dabbled with my 40ish Me blog.
I have procrastinated and dabbled, edited and photoshopped.
Now I just want to speak from the heart.
I am approached so often by people who are unhappy.
- Overweight and feeling trapped.
- Unfit and wanting to change but not knowing ‘the how’.
- Lacking a partner and feeling lonely.
- Feeling unfulfilled and stuck.
- In a job with Monday morning dread, every Sunday night.
All I know RIGHT now is that I need to get my truth out there, I have a burning desire to write from the heart.
I have had to ditch my perfectionism and face the roadblock, so I am setting this site live and unpolished.
That is the first step in my recovery.
With huge love